From Monday’s
bombing to Friday’s “manhunt,” things have definitely been…um…intense. I first
sat down to write this post the day after the bombing and have a hard time
finishing it.
The truth is,
there are so many things a person can takeaway from the events that have
happened in Boston (and in West, Texas and all over the world). Part of me
wants to lie out my life and the things in it that I count as utterly important
that I probably wouldn’t, if I truly understood how short life on earth really was
and is. The other part of me wants
to write out my sorrow surrounding the position of “Suspect #2” (how he’s a 19
year old that potentially had a full life ahead of him, but he chose a path
that leads to destruction and, now, is an Enemy of the State). I’d write about
how my heart longs for him to come to know the Lord and how I believe even he,
the criminal, can be saved by the grace of God. (I will, most likely, still
write about these things in future posts.)
Today,
though, I want to finish the post I started on Tuesday, April 16th.
This post may
feel kind of grim because it’s about the first thing that comes to a person’s
mind after a tragedy. The world would maybe call it the second darkest thing
after the heinous crimes of the individuals that caused the crime itself. My
point, however, is not to scare people, but to share the hope and the certainty
that is in Christ.
What you’ll
read is how the event happened in my life, and what I first gathered from it.
(Exhale…)
So, in an
attempt to make this post as short as possible, here we go…
Tuesday, April 16th, 2013
As the news
channels display the pictures, and government officials try to explain to the
world what is going on, I’ve been thinking…
Last week,
all of the setup began. The medical tent was placed a short distance from the
finish line, bleachers were set in place, and the city seemed to be getting
busier by the second. It was going to be my first Boston Marathon experience (as
a spectator, of course), and I was excited.
I walked to
work an hour early Monday morning.
You see,
“Marathon Monday” tends to put the city in a buzz. People line up everywhere, roads
are blocked off, and several of the T stations are put to rest. Let’s just say,
this makes getting around a little more difficult than normal. I didn’t mind,
too much.
Monday
morning, things were quiet.
A few
spectators were gearing up outside of my office, as I walked to the eatery next
door. I bought a coffee, went upstairs, and began reading a book. I had about
an hour, and I figured I might as well relax a little bit before the day’s
festivities began. As I ate, I heard people talking about the race. Excitement,
mixed with nervous anticipation, seemed to be everywhere.
Around
8:20am, I walked next door, went up the elevator, and sat down at my desk –
about 100 yards away from the finish line.
The office
was busy.
We had been
given a challenge a few weeks ago. If we met our goals, the second half of
Monday would be a Patriot’s Day celebration. We would get out of the office and
experience some of the activity outside by the finish line. We hadn’t met the
goals, yet – and everyone was frantically trying to do so.
As noon hit,
the first runner was making their way across the finish line.
Wanting to
see some of the action, I left for my lunch break and ventured down to the edge
of the street. Due to the mass amount of people, I couldn’t get to the finish
line. I peaked around and over people, tried to squeeze through, but eventually
decided that I’d just have to wait until later to see everything clearly.
I grabbed
some pretzels from CVS, and I walked back to work. Several of us ate by the
window of our office so that we could see “the zombies” pass by (runners who
had finished the race who were a little stiff legged).
By the time
2:00pm hit, everyone in the office was back in “go” mode. Phone calls were being
made, deals were being discussed, and leads were being sourced. I had just
finished texting my mom about their trip to Boston (they were due to fly in the
next day) and refocused my attention on the work in front of me.
Minutes later
(at 2:50pm) a loud noise shook our building – and everything in my office
stopped.
All of us
looked up from our computers, stood up, and ran to the window that overlooked
the “recovery area” of the finish line. Within two seconds the scene shifted
from looks of victory to horror. It seemed like only 5 seconds passed when
another loud boom echoed throughout Boston.
People
started running.
Athletes who
had just finished running over 26 miles, and could barely walk, began sprinting
down the street below us. People in nearby buildings began running outside away
from the finish line area. Medical personnel and cops began running against the
wave of people toward the scene.
Not quite
sure what had happened, I looked up and saw the John Hancock Tower (the tallest
building in Boston and the place where my husband works). Everything seemed to
fine. I exhaled in relief.
The office
was in a complete frenzy. Some people thought a gunman was on the loose. A few thought
the finish line (a very large metal beam) had fallen. Others thought bombs were
the cause. Intentional or not, we didn’t know. All we knew was that something terrible
was happening. We couldn’t see what had happened, but we were right by it.
A few seconds
later, a “tweet” and a picture came across my colleague’s screen. The finish
line of the Boston Marathon had been bombed…twice.
I began to
imagine what we couldn’t see. I looked at the emergency vehicles stacking up
down the street. “How could something like this happen? What if my husband was
down there? What if he had left his office to watch his friend cross the finish
line? What is going on? Where is he?”
I ran to my
desk. My husband had called. I picked up my phone and dialed his number…no
answer. I tried again, but this time, my phone wasn’t working. I picked up the
landline and finally got through to his work voicemail:
“Hey. I saw
that you called. I think a bomb went off. I’m okay. I see your building. It
looks fine, so I’m thinking you’re okay, too. I love you.” (Or something like
that.) I set the phone down, and my heart began racing. What we didn’t know and
the fear of what could happen next was chilling.
The next few seconds
were a blur, but the next thing I knew, my husband was in my office. He, after
being alarmed by his secretary that a bomb had gone off, told those he could to
evacuate, and then ran down 42 flights of stairs, unsure of what he would see
when he got out of the building. Would my office building be in flames? He
couldn’t get a hold of me. He called his parents and asked them to pray.
Once outside,
he ran across the street, past a few cops who were trying to stop him, and into
my building.
Ten minutes
after the first bomb had gone off, we were together and maybe even safe.
As everyone
in the office debated whether or not we should stay or leave, we watched people
outside of the window. Streets were being shut down, volunteers were turning
over tables and throwing them out of the way so that medical vehicles could get
through, people with stretchers were running toward the medical tent, and
camera men were running with cameras toward the scene.
The sirens in
our building sounded. We grabbed our bags, ran out of our office, down the
stairs, and out the back door of the building into the alley. As police
officers begged for people to clear the area (they didn’t know if another bomb
was going to go off), Caleb and I prayed. We walked home (very quickly) calling
family and friends. We were okay.
I know this
is a lot of detail, and, if you’re like me, you’re probably not interested in
the stories anymore. At this point, I kind of just want answers. However, I
tell these things so that I can make my point clear:
Death
happens.
I know this
is a terribly awful statement for a lot of people to read after watching the
horrific events on Monday, but I think it’s one of the most important things a
person can think about. The answer can even shape the rest of your life.
You see, I
believe that life lasts forever.
The Bible
speaks of two different eternities – eternal life, or heaven, and eternal
death, also known as hell (See Matthew 25:46). The Bible also says that God
wants EVERYONE to know him and have eternal life (2 Peter 3:9). He even provides
us with a solution so that we don’t have to experience eternal death.
You see, God
created man – he created you and me. He created man to do good things and live
life with a pure heart, not causing pain or hurt or chaos to anyone or
anything. It was a beautiful creation. He gave us Eden a perfect and beautiful
place. He wanted good for us. (And He still does.) God told Adam and Eve that
they could eat anything in the garden, except for the fruit of one tree – “The
tree of the knowledge of good and evil.” He wanted them to choose to love and
obey Him, not be forced into it. They chose a different path.
Adam and Eve
ate the apple and, by doing so, chose to go against the provision that the Lord
had for them…perfection. Sin
entered (See Romans 5:12).
We, just like
Adam and Eve, are not perfect and make mistakes that cause harm, hurt, chaos
and confusion to others. (“For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of
God.” Romans 3:23) Sin, in its original language, is an archery term that means
“missing the mark” – and the Bible says the “wages of sin is death” (Romans
6:23).
But there’s
hope.
The Bible
also says that “the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord”
(Romans 6:23). It reads, “while we were still sinners, Christ died for us”
(Romans 5:8). He paid the price for our sin. He died, and His death ransomed
us. His death declared us righteous (or in right standing) before God. It’s a
gift. We didn’t, and don’t, have to earn it (Ephesians 2:8).
Today, I live
by this truth: “If you confess with your mouth, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ and believe in
your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved” (Romans 10:9).
He is life.
Eternal life. (John 3:16)
I guess what
I’m trying to say, is there is an answer. “The afterlife” doesn’t have to be a
scary, uncertain, mythological thing. You can know. You don’t have to wonder. You can walk through life knowing
that even if death happens, it’s not over. There’s no fear in death. What a
relief!
When the
bombings happened, everything stopped. What people were doing didn’t matter.
What everyone had planned didn’t either. All that mattered was life – what it
was and how to save it.
My prayer is
that events like this would make us stop and think. May those who know the Lord
rest in the fact that in Him and Him only is eternal life and you have nothing
to fear. May those who feel uncertain, search for the truth. Don’t let anxiety or
awkwardness stop you. Search for answer. There is one.
What you
think about it could shape the rest of your life.
Thanks so much for writing this post. I loved reading it. I loved hearing about your experience. It's true. The sting of death is swallowed in Christ. That's such a sweet thought. :)
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